*sighs*
Slipping into another depression, I think. Everything has been hurting my feelings lately. From stupid stuff like "sarah isn't paying attention to me because she is always talking to andre" to other stupid stuff like, "kevin said he could hear the mellophone trio, but not well."I don't know if anyone notices this downfall. Kevin does, I'm pretty sure...he keeps going, "what's wrong?" with a slight worried look.
I'm just tired of everything. This happens every school year. I fall into a pattern and I'm just so sick and tired of it and ready for change!! I'm dreading homecoming. This is bad...I was looking forward to it.
The extent of my worries is endless. My worst is that I am thinking about marriage. Now! *rolls eyes* I'm so stupid! I want a good husband. I want one who doesn't cheat on me..and treats me well. I know that is what everyone wants...well, men wants good wives who don't cheat on them. I just...I'd much rather a divorce if my husband is unhappy than for him to have an affair.
College worries are killing me. Mom is really annoying about my essay. She is bugging Kevin(what the crap?!) about his essay, too!! AAArrrgggghhh. *really really frustrated*
Mellophone trio was okay. I guess it needed to be louder even though I really can't play much more loudly.
All my wishes lately have been for happiness. I always fall into a pit of despair(whoo) around this time. The sad thing is, it ends around...Christmas. Or later. Or earlier. Argh, just let me be happy.
Forget it.
-Meredith
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